— T.S. Eliot

thanks Mr. Tom Petty.

I’m really trying to forgive you, even though it still hurts 
Even though I’m still fighting it, even though I feel worse
I’m still trying to forgive you, even though you forget to call
Even through tears, when you don’t think of me at all

I would have said I’m sorry
I would have been the one to yield
I would have given you my dignity
with my lips closed and sealed
But I can’t remind you that I’m here when you’re not

I’m really trying to forgive you, cause it’s only hurting me
Even though you are gone and it just seems like a dream
I’m still trying to forgive you, even time I see your face
Though I feel two feet tall, cause i feel like that’s grace

I would have said I’m sorry
I would have been the one to yield
I would have given you my dignity
with my lips closed and sealed
But I can’t remind you that I’m here when you’re not

You know how once you make a decision, you just want everything to be over with and to have fallen in place? That’s exactly how I feel, right now. I made the Pros and Cons list and now, after much hesitance, I’ve made the decision. I thought that was the hard part?

I worry. ALL THE TIME. I worry what will happen, I worry what won’t. I worry what people will think, I worry that they won’t at all. It’s a bit of a problem but I’ve come to terms with my neurosis. Most of the time it can be cured with prayer and deep breaths. Today all I have are sighs. 

All I can lift up today are prayers of hope, that after the dust clears, everything will be in the saddle.

:)

As a child, this entertained me. As an adult, this scares me.

it makes so much more sense now.

right?

Hypochondriac.

This is so me. I am the one who gets a cold and insists that it’s pneumonia.  My throat hurts = I have throat cancer. It’s kind of insane, I know. When I was looking for the correct spelling of hypochondriac, I came across Hypochondriasis (sometimes referred to as health phobia). OMG…I have it!

So it’s April 1st, 2009. Last year I fooled my now bf, Kyle, into thinking that my cat had feline AIDS. I told him this long sob story about how he was going to have to be put down and how sad I was. This year, I’ve got nothin’. NO AIDS!

laughter ensued.

hap.pi.ness  [hap-ee-nis]

–noun

1. the quality or state of being happy.

2. a short film by Sophie Barthes!